So Yeah, I Took a Break...

OMG are my eyes deceiving me? Is that JustAnotherMrs. on my blog-roll? Didn't think she was even blogging any more...

OK, OK, so maybe you didn't even miss me while I was gone, but I did take a little break from the blogging world. My last post was a bit dramatic and I talked about transitioning through thoughts and phases that I'm going through right now in my life and I've discovered that I need to stop taking life so damn seriously all the time.

I think I've had a stick up my butt for the past couple of months and I'm not sure why. Am I unhappy with myself? Am I unhappy with others? Am I unhappy with my job? Am I unhappy with my friends? What is it?!?! And then it dawned on me... You are in control of you. I CONTROL HOW I FEEL ABOUT ALL THESE ASPECTS IN MY LIFE. PERIOD.

So, instead of bothering around with the whole 90 day challenge to healthiness and betterness (if that's even a word) and instead of worrying about everything I eat or how much I work out or what everyone else may think - I'm going to start doing whatever the hell I want to do. I'm going to start eating whatever I want to eat when I want to eat it. I'm going to have a drink if I want to have a drink. I'm going to go for a long run if I want to go for a long run. I'm going to go out with a friend if I need to connect with a female point of view. I'm going to spend more time doing fun things with my kids. I'm going to arrange to have more alone time and date nights with my husband.

I'm going to just live and be me and enjoy my life as much as I can.

If there's anything I've been reflecting on this past week, it's that you only live once and I don't want to look back and say - man, I wish I would have done more of X or Y or Z when I had the chance.

Example: The other night my son wanted me to get down on the carpet with him and play cars. It was already past his bedtime and normally I would have been all mommy-mode and made him put his toys away and honor "bed time". And you know what I did instead? I did something completely unlike my normal self - I let him stay up and play - I played with him - then when he was ready, we put the cars away, put in a movie and snuggled together on the couch. I WANT MORE OF THESE PRECIOUS MOMENTS.

Another Example: We've been taking the kids to the YMCA to go swimming at least once every week and then we usually go out for dinner afterwards. Normally Luke and I are pretty frugal with our money and NEVER go out to eat, unless it's a date night - which let's be honest, those with children understand that those are far and few between... But, we've both pulled the stick out of our butts on this one and we go out and enjoy it! And our kids do too! Yes, they may be a bit embarassing because they're excited to be out and Jacob may cry a little and annoy others around us, but you know what? I love every second.

This weekend I'm throwing a surprise birthday party for my husband. I'm so excited to be planning this for him and it's been so much fun coordinating with his friends and thinking of ways to get him out of the house and it's amazing to see how people respond and want to be involved. I just love it. Luke and I need to connect with our friends more! They all miss us so much, I mean, my God, we're married and have children, we're not old grandma's and grandpa's!!!!

Bottom Line: This woman is a happy one and I think I am  FINALLY comfortable and at ease with who I am, including my flaws.

Take it or leave it.

Woo hoo! Happy Friday ya'll!!