::Transitioning::

Wow, I think I've officially hit a mid-mid-life crisis as of late.

I have so many thoughts and emotions running through my mind that I seriously never thought could be true about myself. Most notably, I've seriously contemplated walking away from my career and staying at home with my kids and having more children. Also notable, I want to dedicate more time to socializing and getting my kids involved with our new community in Hudson.



Please note, I have no interest in being this...

 I know, I know... You're all thinking I want to be some soccer, super-mom, and hey, maybe I do, but...


I'd want to be more like this... OMG off the shoulder top + skinny's = HAWT :)














The other things stirring in my heart is to just be more involved in our community with other mom's and dad's and with other people that have kids.

Newsflash: Luke and I got married a lot sooner than any of our friends and we have kids on top of that. I seriously have no girlfriends that I can talk to that can relate to me and my lifestyle. And it sucks. I'm not saying that I can't talk to my girlfriends, I love them and right now they are my escape from reality when I need it, but I've noticed that my husband and I, as much as we love each other, are suffocating each other because we aren't involved in anything and aren't doing anything and we have no one else to talk to besides our parents that understand where we're at in life. Pathetic? Yes, please - with a side of a little depressing.

Tonight we are going to join the YMCA so we can at least get our family involved at an athletic facility. Not to mention the YMCA is a non-profit and all proceeds go back to the building, making it better for the community - I like this.

But, other than this - we have no outlet for ourselves or for our kids right now. They will start daycare in the coming months when Luke goes back to work, but again, we're all SUFFOCATING EACH OTHER RIGHT NOW.

We have to get out.
We have to get involved.
Or I'm seriously going to lose my mind.

I need a book club or a mom's night out  or a toddler time club or a church group - anything. I'm not giving up until I find something for myself and for my kids at least... My coworker already offered to let Luke join his softball team and I'm definitely taking him up on that and Luke said he'd love it too. It sounds like a bunch of dudes that love to drink beer, they're all married and they all have kids. BINGO - that's Luke to a "T"! Luke needs in on that. Plus he loves sports and rocks at softball. As Charlie Sheen would say - ::winning:: -

My life is soo boring right now and I'm not learning or growing or brining any substance to any table - I feel like I've become a piece of stale, old bread or something - I just need to get more involved and be more active in the community with other people, not just by myself running or working out or going to work. Everyday is starting to feel like the movie Groundhog Day and although it's comfortable and I like my routine, holy balls I need some friggin' fun and excitement in my life right now. Something STIMULATING.

I have no clue how to talk about this with Luke without hurting his feelings, but I know for a fact he's just as bored as I am right now. We're young, we're healthy and we're friggin' losin' our minds sittin' around the house all the time.

Phew. I feel better already just blogging about it.

Later, dudes and dudets.