Routine

5:31 A.M. Wake up in a cold bed. Alone.
Push snooze once, maybe twice.
5:40 A.M. Jump out of bed. Freezing.
Quiet! Don't wake the baby!
Shower.
Warmer.
Lotion.
Make-up.
Hair. Ugh. Forget the hair. Twist. Up.
Quiet! Don't wake the toddler!
Tip-toe downstairs.
Dress in the dark.
Quiet!
Turn on the lights. Wake the baby.
He stretches. I change him. Dress him. Happiness.
Upstairs.
Wake the toddler.
He stretches. Whines. I change him. Dress him. Happiness.
Everybody downstairs.
Coffee. Lunch. Jackets. Mittens. Carseat. Purse. Keys.
Into the Car.
Carseats.
Seatbelts.
Gone.
Daycare.
Jackets. Mittens. Carseat. We need diapers. Mental note.
Car.
Drive to work.
Enjoy my coffee.
Enjoy the silence.
Sometimes prayer.
Work.
Climb the stairs.
Emails. Meetings. Phone calls. Polite conversations. Thoughts. Spreadsheets.
Lunch.
Emails. Meetings Phone calls. Polite conversations. Thoughts. Spreadsheets.
4:00 P.M. Go Home.
Daycare. Jackets. Mittens. Carseat. More polite conversation. Kisses. Hugs.
Car.
Drive home.
Jackets. Mittens. Carseat. Purse. Bags.
Into the house.
Play. Play. Play.
Make dinner.
Eat dinner.
Play. Play. Play.
Bathtime. Bubbles. Laughs. Hugs. Happiness.
Play. Play. Play.
Bedtime. Bottle. Books. Songs. Kisses. Hugs. Happiness.
Silence.
T.V.? Movie?
Silence.
Relaxation.
Into Bed.
Don't forget diapers.
Repeat Daily.

Starting to wonder where you are in all this.

Miss you. Love you.